Traveling Toward

Independently dependent, confident insecurity

She struggles in the rough accent of growing in maturity.

The miles journeyed have hastened the time.

The air is thinner the higher she climbs .

She perceives an overwhelming sense of many steps left to take.

Chains of dependency and insecurity are hard to break.

Boulders crash down with an aim to defeat,

She steadies herself, and places her feet.

Though her eyes are directed toward the top, her heart desires rest,

But she wont look back, sit down, give up until she has finished her quest.

I am not where I am

I am not where I am.

In darkness, I am surrounded

Yet completely alone.

The quietness blankets thoughts

And silences confidence.

Only here is there peace.

An inner-panic, chaotic

Yet comforting and gentle.

Only here lies the answers,

Those of which will never be understood.

A longing, quenched

But not with the medicine excepted.

In darkness, I am surrounded

But I am not where I am.

I am led by the light.

My unanswered questions,

Left unanswered.

The darkness filling in the mystery,

Allowing for the leap.

Dam

There is a dam

it buckles beneath the weight of sheer pressure

For a second, it doubts

and a drop falls down its long smooth face

The small droplet hits the bottom – splash

The noise is a reminder of the failure, the weakness

So another droplet falls, and another.

A torrent of drips, of failures, falls through the cracks.

Then she remember what she is:

A dam, a stronghold, a fortress.

Fortifying herself, she straightens up

She braces herself against the unrelenting water

And she succeeds.

My Demise

In darkness I am fully attentive

Because I shine so bright

To sparkle is my own incentive

I must escape the night

While beholding the light which outward shines

I turn to look inside

At the core is a glimpse at brutal wars

And I on neither side

Something wells up deep within my being

A fear I can’t deny

A threat to extinguish light so freeing

‘I would be trapped’ I cry

The painful thought of darkness seeping in

To my oasis of light

My stronghold - fortress - protecting within

Will crumble at the sight

I will be left alone a shattered mess

A shell of what I was

Although the light is strong I must confess

that’s just what darkness does